Wow I have been gone awhile...not really gone just busy. I am officially a year older than I was the last time I blogged hehe! I had the most amazing birthday EVER!
The Thanksgiving season was amazing and I am sooo looking forward to the Christmas season and the joys it will bring! I can't wait to experience a happy holiday season for the first time in 8 LONG years!
Things are going great in PA. I am getting bigger by the day I swear, but have nicely only gained 19 lbs 6 months into my pregnancy :) I for the first time today I actually FEEL pregnant...it's so exciting! I have been waiting for this day :) My baby girl is VERY active she is constantly moving around which is soooo amazing! I enjoy every poke since the last pregnancy was so bad and my baby couldn't move. I love to sit and just watch my belly move around. I feel very good considering how large I am getting. I have some minor aches and pains, but nothin to complain about! It is so much fun sharing this pregnancy with daddy...he talks to Lorraine and rubs my tummy all the time it's so endearing knowing how much he loves her already! I will say it's scary thinking I am going to be responsible for this little humans life, but I know we will do fine. Phil is my balance in life...he's so wonderful and patient. He completes me in ways I have never known possible before now. I couldn't ask for a better man in my life :) I smile everyday just knowing I will see him!!
Saturday is shopping day I can't wait! I have asked Phil to join me so we can first off spend sometime alone just us together and secondly to share my Christmas excitement with him! We both work an insane amount and only see each other after he gets out of work...which means we're both really beat! We chat a bit and then it's off to bed 430 AM comes REALLY early! Yes that is when I get up everyday for work uggggh! The 13th is Christmas tree day I CAN'T WAIT to get our first Christmas tree together and decorate it :) Altho we shall see what the cats think LOL! I am sure they will enjoy climbin it :)
I don't know if it shows in my writing how happy I am! I can't put into words the changes that have taken place in my life at this point, but I can say I have never quite been this happy. I am at peace with who I am who I have become and where my life is going. for the first time ever I think I know why people fall in love! There is no more yelling or hitting just discussions and caring! I didn't know it was possible for anyone to LOVE me just because I am me! It has taken me or shall I say is still taking me a LONG time to adjust to the fact that someone wants to do things with me and love me just because I am the person I am...I don't have EARN respect or give up on things I want just to please someone else...I can share my life with Phil and him with me just because we enjoy it...without anyone getting upset or angry...it's such a new experience for me...I would be lying if I said I don't often catch myself waiting for the yelling or hitting because I disagree or don't like something....and it just never happens! I am still learning to be open and not agree with things just because it will make Phil happy...I have spent so many years training myself to just shut up or agree that being able to voice my opinion comes exteremely hard for me. Anyway enough babbling from me....I hope this find everyone doing well! I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and an amazing New Year!
God Bless you! I miss you all and Love you!
Stacy
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Here's a gooey, romantic game of tag. Six of you will be tagged at the end (thanks, Suzanne!), so if you make it that far ... good job! Then, those six people can do the same thing on their own blog and so on and so forth. Feel free do this on your blog anyway - even if you're not tagged!
*What is your husband's name? Well boyfriend hehe is Philip C Smith III.
*How long have you guys been married? dating 8 months Dec 12th.
*How long did you date? 8 months so far.
*How old is he? 38
*Who is taller? we're both 5'8"
*Who can sing the best?Oh yea that would be Phil...altho he doesn't think so
*Who is smarter? Who can honestly answer that? I would have to say Phil the engineer hehe
*Who pays the bills? we each pay our own.
*Who does the laundry? I wash and Phil dries and folds :)
*Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? Phil does...it's next to the wall and not easy to get out pregnant....ya know lots of peeing LOL!
*Who mows the lawn? Phil
*Who cooks dinner? We share...depends on the day
*Who is the first to admit when they're wrong? ME.
*Who kissed who first? It was a mutal action.
*Who wears the pants? honestly we don't struggle...we discuss everything and decide what plan sounds best for both of us.
*What is your husband's name? Well boyfriend hehe is Philip C Smith III.
*How long have you guys been married? dating 8 months Dec 12th.
*How long did you date? 8 months so far.
*How old is he? 38
*Who is taller? we're both 5'8"
*Who can sing the best?Oh yea that would be Phil...altho he doesn't think so
*Who is smarter? Who can honestly answer that? I would have to say Phil the engineer hehe
*Who pays the bills? we each pay our own.
*Who does the laundry? I wash and Phil dries and folds :)
*Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? Phil does...it's next to the wall and not easy to get out pregnant....ya know lots of peeing LOL!
*Who mows the lawn? Phil
*Who cooks dinner? We share...depends on the day
*Who is the first to admit when they're wrong? ME.
*Who kissed who first? It was a mutal action.
*Who wears the pants? honestly we don't struggle...we discuss everything and decide what plan sounds best for both of us.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
We have the news! Category: Life
Well finally I am back to the good ole blog :) It's been a while, but that is just becuase there hasn't been much news other than my growing belly. We found out Friday that we will be having a baby girl in March. She will be so loved and cherished I can't even put it into words. I am very excited about our new addition. The ultrasound showed that everything is going well this time. the baby is growing on schedule and shows no signs of anything wrong. This is such welcomed news for me after the last pregnancy. There are only a few of you out there that truly know how hard losing my first baby was on me. It is certainly nothing I ever want to experience again and for sure that is the first worry I had when I found out I was pregnant again. Most of you know this baby wasn't planned, but seems to be...shall we say...meant to be. Once I get past 28 weeks I will feel 100% better I know, because it is 100% survival rate past that point. Altho of course they want to get you as close to 40 wks as they can. They have discussed inducing me because of my distance from the hospital, but I know Lorraine's daddy has some concerns about that so it is still in the discussion phase. My mind is fine with induction I trust my Dr 100% :) He was the same Dr that went through my loss the last time and I know how much he loves my new baby girl :) He told me he can't wait to hold her....how awesome a Dr is that! So in the end we shall see what happens. Everything else is going well in life. I am enjoying the changes I have made :) I hope everyone has a wonderful Halloween and pray the kids stay safe.
Love and Hugs
Stacy
We have the news! Category: Life
Well finally I am back to the good ole blog :) It's been a while, but that is just becuase there hasn't been much news other than my growing belly. We found out Friday that we will be having a baby girl in March. She will be so loved and cherished I can't even put it into words. I am very excited about our new addition. The ultrasound showed that everything is going well this time. the baby is growing on schedule and shows no signs of anything wrong. This is such welcomed news for me after the last pregnancy. There are only a few of you out there that truly know how hard losing my first baby was on me. It is certainly nothing I ever want to experience again and for sure that is the first worry I had when I found out I was pregnant again. Most of you know this baby wasn't planned, but seems to be...shall we say...meant to be. Once I get past 28 weeks I will feel 100% better I know, because it is 100% survival rate past that point. Altho of course they want to get you as close to 40 wks as they can. They have discussed inducing me because of my distance from the hospital, but I know Lorraine's daddy has some concerns about that so it is still in the discussion phase. My mind is fine with induction I trust my Dr 100% :) He was the same Dr that went through my loss the last time and I know how much he loves my new baby girl :) He told me he can't wait to hold her....how awesome a Dr is that! So in the end we shall see what happens. Everything else is going well in life. I am enjoying the changes I have made :) I hope everyone has a wonderful Halloween and pray the kids stay safe.
Love and Hugs
Stacy
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Baby ponderings! Current mood: blissful Category: Life
Well well here I am again! I am 15 weeks along in my pregnancy as of tomorrow. We saw the Dr on Friday and it seems all is well. We heard out little one for the first time! It was ever so amazing! I can't wait to hear it again and get an ultra sound done in Oct so that we can tell what we are having! We have our names all picked out which is really awesome! I just want a healthy happy baby this time..no more experiences like Harrison. I of course am worried all the time that something is wrong even tho there are no signs to back up my worry. I REALLY want to feel pregnant so that I can enjoy my little one. We have felt some motion in my tummy which was beyond words....but it doesn't last long and doesn't repeat often :( I am so scared about being a mommy, but everyone I know says I will do great. Phil is excited which helps me to enjoy more of this and not worry as much! Have I told you all how wonderful Phil is LOL he really is my balance. I know many of you don't know him, but trust me on this one...he's completely wonderful and he LOVES me....simply amazing! Our families are also very excited :) So this little bundle will definately come into welcome arms. I know I will feel better about everything once I pass the stage where I lost Harrison which was 22 weeks...almost there! By time I go to see Dr Wetzel again it will be about 20 weeks :) Now on to the hospital drama...Tyler in Tunkahannock where I was scheduled to deliver is no longer having a maternity ward :( So now I must travel 2 hrs + to Wilkes Barre Pa to deliver our babe. I was told by my Dr's associate tho that Dr Wetzel may actual schedule my delivery and induce my labor. Just because the drive is so far and because of the issues I had before. If this prevents me having the baby in the car on the ride down than I say wonderful! It is a HUGE worry to wonder if you will make it to the hospital ect...so that would be one less thing to think about! I guess that is about all my news here until I see the Dr again! I just had to share the wonderful news that we heard our little bundle and all is going well this time! I pray everything turns out 100% different this time!
Prayers that everyone is having a Blessed day and being guided by God's Love!
Hugs
Stacy
Baby ponderings! Current mood: blissful Category: Life
Well well here I am again! I am 15 weeks along in my pregnancy as of tomorrow. We saw the Dr on Friday and it seems all is well. We heard out little one for the first time! It was ever so amazing! I can't wait to hear it again and get an ultra sound done in Oct so that we can tell what we are having! We have our names all picked out which is really awesome! I just want a healthy happy baby this time..no more experiences like Harrison. I of course am worried all the time that something is wrong even tho there are no signs to back up my worry. I REALLY want to feel pregnant so that I can enjoy my little one. We have felt some motion in my tummy which was beyond words....but it doesn't last long and doesn't repeat often :( I am so scared about being a mommy, but everyone I know says I will do great. Phil is excited which helps me to enjoy more of this and not worry as much! Have I told you all how wonderful Phil is LOL he really is my balance. I know many of you don't know him, but trust me on this one...he's completely wonderful and he LOVES me....simply amazing! Our families are also very excited :) So this little bundle will definately come into welcome arms. I know I will feel better about everything once I pass the stage where I lost Harrison which was 22 weeks...almost there! By time I go to see Dr Wetzel again it will be about 20 weeks :) Now on to the hospital drama...Tyler in Tunkahannock where I was scheduled to deliver is no longer having a maternity ward :( So now I must travel 2 hrs + to Wilkes Barre Pa to deliver our babe. I was told by my Dr's associate tho that Dr Wetzel may actual schedule my delivery and induce my labor. Just because the drive is so far and because of the issues I had before. If this prevents me having the baby in the car on the ride down than I say wonderful! It is a HUGE worry to wonder if you will make it to the hospital ect...so that would be one less thing to think about! I guess that is about all my news here until I see the Dr again! I just had to share the wonderful news that we heard our little bundle and all is going well this time! I pray everything turns out 100% different this time!
Prayers that everyone is having a Blessed day and being guided by God's Love!
Hugs
Stacy
Monday, August 18, 2008
Ok so it has been quite awhile since I was here last! And let me tell you what...sooo much has happened it is amazing! I never knew one life could withstand so much drama! I am completely in love with the new boyfriend...Phil and now live with him....this was absolutely the hardest decision I have ever made in my life and I am still a bit overwhelmed by it to be honest! We will make it work...Phil is my calm balance :) He has more faith in me that I ever will and how wonderful that he TELLS me :) How even more wonderful he tells me I am beautiful and MEANS it...to the point I almost believe it too! So now I know you are all going OMG she moved in after only 4 months what could make her do that?!?! Well that is where even more chaos strikes! It seems that on July 12th after some signs of sickness and tiredness we decided to take a pregnancy test...and yes you guessed it...positive! So shocked, but accepting! We are both excited to know we will have a little one in March! So this is what prompted our living together...now the downfall to this in my life is that Prancer couldn't move with me :(
I am completely shattered that I had to make a choice that left him out...I can't help but feel as tho he is being punished for my decisions :( I still see him everyday and he even came over yesterday to visit at Phil's, but it isn't the same for him or for me! However Phil has very small yard and a main road right outside the door which neither is a good Prancer thing! So I had to make the haredest decision of my life to leave him with mom and dad where he can still run and play at the only home he's ever known...but man is my heart broken....that dog is my everything...the one thing in my life that has never let me down and now I feel as tho I have let him down :( I keep questioning myself is what's best for him ( staying at home) really what's best without me? He is going to adjust without me? Will be ever seem happy again? ( he is really mopey now) I just don't know I have to wait and see....
so now on to happier things...Phil is the greatest guy in the world I wouldn't change a single thing about him. He makes me laugh, smile, and just feel good about myself...he love politics as much as I do ( didn't think i would ever find that hehehe) He isn't afraid of my tears...he let's me cry and just holds me close, he likes to hold me ( I am soo thankful for this) He teaches me things if I want to learn it he shows me...doesn't matter that I am a girl :) ( how cool is that) He can take my mood swings with a grain of salt and still love me...knowing I don't really want to be mean and will cry afterwards for saying hurtful things... He is involved and interested in my life as well as I am his...He has so much faith in me and tells me so...he tells me I am beautiful and makes me believe it...he is the calm to my chaos the balance my life has needed...he can tolerate the 12 yr old that lives within my soul and I think kind of appriciates it :) I could go on for days on the reasons why I love him, but I haven't time to list everything...so you will just have to take my word on this.....he's incredible and makes me feel like the most important/beautiful person on the Earth! Phil thank you for making my life complete and being the support I have always needed...I hope that I can do the same for you!
So as you may be able to tell that amongst all the chaos in my life there is stability and happiness too :) I will try to be better about posting :)
Hugs
Stacy
I am completely shattered that I had to make a choice that left him out...I can't help but feel as tho he is being punished for my decisions :( I still see him everyday and he even came over yesterday to visit at Phil's, but it isn't the same for him or for me! However Phil has very small yard and a main road right outside the door which neither is a good Prancer thing! So I had to make the haredest decision of my life to leave him with mom and dad where he can still run and play at the only home he's ever known...but man is my heart broken....that dog is my everything...the one thing in my life that has never let me down and now I feel as tho I have let him down :( I keep questioning myself is what's best for him ( staying at home) really what's best without me? He is going to adjust without me? Will be ever seem happy again? ( he is really mopey now) I just don't know I have to wait and see....
so now on to happier things...Phil is the greatest guy in the world I wouldn't change a single thing about him. He makes me laugh, smile, and just feel good about myself...he love politics as much as I do ( didn't think i would ever find that hehehe) He isn't afraid of my tears...he let's me cry and just holds me close, he likes to hold me ( I am soo thankful for this) He teaches me things if I want to learn it he shows me...doesn't matter that I am a girl :) ( how cool is that) He can take my mood swings with a grain of salt and still love me...knowing I don't really want to be mean and will cry afterwards for saying hurtful things... He is involved and interested in my life as well as I am his...He has so much faith in me and tells me so...he tells me I am beautiful and makes me believe it...he is the calm to my chaos the balance my life has needed...he can tolerate the 12 yr old that lives within my soul and I think kind of appriciates it :) I could go on for days on the reasons why I love him, but I haven't time to list everything...so you will just have to take my word on this.....he's incredible and makes me feel like the most important/beautiful person on the Earth! Phil thank you for making my life complete and being the support I have always needed...I hope that I can do the same for you!
So as you may be able to tell that amongst all the chaos in my life there is stability and happiness too :) I will try to be better about posting :)
Hugs
Stacy
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
What a week!! Current mood: loved Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
Ok all here I am again! I have some news to report, but not much so this should be short and sweet!
As you know I work at a bar as a waitress 3 nights a week...Well Saturday night my nightmare came true a 3rd time LOL! I fell ( luckily I had no food) and this time I fell HARD! I mean the floor shook under I swear. I was moving so fast I actually continued to slide after I fell and ended up under the pool table! Now there were about 20 ppl in the dining room OMG talk about embarassing :) Oh well so the result of my fall....a hairline fracture on my ankle and torn ligaments from my calf to my ankle on my left foot!! Jesus I do know how to make it count don't I :) I will be fine I promise! I am on crutches supposedly for 3 weeks, but the boss says I have to go back to work july 3rd...so you know I will. Plus honestly I don't work a second job because I love working that much we all know I need the $$ so that enters into my listening to him too! so that is the news here I am sure you will all find it amusing and concerning at the same time!
Now for my state of mind! I am doing really well. I am so happy with things right now. I honestly can't say anything negative about life these days. I am in an amazing relationship YAY! I take everyday as it comes and move on from there! I am not saying I don't get aggrivated or upset about things, but I do my best to take them on one at a time and move forward. I must say that Phil helps me with this a lot! He has an incredible knack for calming me down and getting my mind off things that are irritating me! I am thankful that he can understand me and not become frustrated also. I know now that life can be so much fun...I had lost sight of that a long time ago...sadly it took me until now to find it! I don't have very many days when I don't have fun, feel great, or just enjoy being alive! It is wonderful to wake up everyday and know that someone loves me...and look forward to every chance we get to spend together!
Enough rambling from me...altho most of you are used to that :) May your lives be as happy as mine! I think of you all often and even tho you don't hear from me frequently doesn't mean you aren't in my thoughts and in my heart!!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
What a week!! Current mood: loved Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
Ok all here I am again! I have some news to report, but not much so this should be short and sweet!
As you know I work at a bar as a waitress 3 nights a week...Well Saturday night my nightmare came true a 3rd time LOL! I fell ( luckily I had no food) and this time I fell HARD! I mean the floor shook under I swear. I was moving so fast I actually continued to slide after I fell and ended up under the pool table! Now there were about 20 ppl in the dining room OMG talk about embarassing :) Oh well so the result of my fall....a hairline fracture on my ankle and torn ligaments from my calf to my ankle on my left foot!! Jesus I do know how to make it count don't I :) I will be fine I promise! I am on crutches supposedly for 3 weeks, but the boss says I have to go back to work july 3rd...so you know I will. Plus honestly I don't work a second job because I love working that much we all know I need the $$ so that enters into my listening to him too! so that is the news here I am sure you will all find it amusing and concerning at the same time!
Now for my state of mind! I am doing really well. I am so happy with things right now. I honestly can't say anything negative about life these days. I am in an amazing relationship YAY! I take everyday as it comes and move on from there! I am not saying I don't get aggrivated or upset about things, but I do my best to take them on one at a time and move forward. I must say that Phil helps me with this a lot! He has an incredible knack for calming me down and getting my mind off things that are irritating me! I am thankful that he can understand me and not become frustrated also. I know now that life can be so much fun...I had lost sight of that a long time ago...sadly it took me until now to find it! I don't have very many days when I don't have fun, feel great, or just enjoy being alive! It is wonderful to wake up everyday and know that someone loves me...and look forward to every chance we get to spend together!
Enough rambling from me...altho most of you are used to that :) May your lives be as happy as mine! I think of you all often and even tho you don't hear from me frequently doesn't mean you aren't in my thoughts and in my heart!!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
A much better day! Current mood: inspired Category: Life
Well since yesterday life has become so much better! I guess sometimes we just need a mental meltdown to keep going strong! I feel so amazing and on top of the world today. Altho I didn't get much sleep I still feel good!
I have begun to realize that being treated well makes you feel well :) It is so nice to finally be treated with care and respect. Finding someone who treats you well can truly change your whole outlook on life. This is especially true when the person treating you this way cares very deeply for you. It becomes more obvious everyday that you can find those once in a lifetime relationships!! One where there is no yelling...just talking and discussing....one where there is no hitting....just gentle touches showing care, hugs, and kisses...what a change for me! Someone who genuinely worries about you and cares what happens to you...and does everything they know to help assure you don't get hurt! And if you get hurt...cares enough to assure you it will be ok....someone who disscusses your worries and is there to support you...these things are all so new to me....I have never had anyone that truly wanted to be a part of my life on every level. Sometimes it is like a dream for me...altho he may not realize it...this is a brand new world for me to explore!
It is hard for a person whose never lived in fear to understand what life without fear means! I hope in the near future that I can close the last chapter of my life (the chapter of the last 8 yrs) and openly start the chapter on my future. I enjoy living without fear and regrets and look forward to my future...not making the same mistakes as before.
I look forward to learning new things, enjoying the outdoors, and just being me for the first time in years! I had thought I lost myself and worried I may never find that child like happiness I once had...but fear not I have found it and myself again! I am so excited about my birthday ( hehe most of you know how that goes) even tho it is 6 months away :) And we know that Christmas is after that YAY!!!!
I have also seen a change in my personality. I no longer feel the need to be defensive all the time. I have gotten so used to always having to fight against the current of life that sailing swiftly with the current is quite pleasing! I don't remember the last time I was defensive or arrogant with anyone...it used to be a daily occurance...I DON'T miss it at all!!! I LOVE being pleasant, funny, charming, silly, and fun this is who I truly am in my heart and in my soul! All the other things that came out in me I truly believe were a product of my enviroment! Of course we do have days when we butt heads with people that is natural and everyone experiences it, but letting it happen and moving forward is the key...sometimes I struggle with that and carry emotions away, but not nearly as frequently or vehemently as before....if and when I do I apolgize to those affected.
So there you have it guys another insight into me. I am a complex creature sometimes altho I try very hard not to be. My goal is to be simple and fun! If I fail it isn't for lack of trying. I hope that there can be someone in the world that loves and cares for me....just by me being me...isn't that everyones goal...someone who can love and respect me even with my flaws ( I am strong enough to know I have many) and imperfections!
I cherish the relationship I am in now and work everyday to realize this is how things should be :) I pray we can make it work so that we are both as happy in the future as we are now! I look forward to everytime Phil and I are together :) I also look forward to sharing him with all of you...but just a little bit hehe!
Hope everyone is having a great day! May God Bless you and keep you safe!
Hugs
Stacy
A much better day! Current mood: inspired Category: Life
Well since yesterday life has become so much better! I guess sometimes we just need a mental meltdown to keep going strong! I feel so amazing and on top of the world today. Altho I didn't get much sleep I still feel good!
I have begun to realize that being treated well makes you feel well :) It is so nice to finally be treated with care and respect. Finding someone who treats you well can truly change your whole outlook on life. This is especially true when the person treating you this way cares very deeply for you. It becomes more obvious everyday that you can find those once in a lifetime relationships!! One where there is no yelling...just talking and discussing....one where there is no hitting....just gentle touches showing care, hugs, and kisses...what a change for me! Someone who genuinely worries about you and cares what happens to you...and does everything they know to help assure you don't get hurt! And if you get hurt...cares enough to assure you it will be ok....someone who disscusses your worries and is there to support you...these things are all so new to me....I have never had anyone that truly wanted to be a part of my life on every level. Sometimes it is like a dream for me...altho he may not realize it...this is a brand new world for me to explore!
It is hard for a person whose never lived in fear to understand what life without fear means! I hope in the near future that I can close the last chapter of my life (the chapter of the last 8 yrs) and openly start the chapter on my future. I enjoy living without fear and regrets and look forward to my future...not making the same mistakes as before.
I look forward to learning new things, enjoying the outdoors, and just being me for the first time in years! I had thought I lost myself and worried I may never find that child like happiness I once had...but fear not I have found it and myself again! I am so excited about my birthday ( hehe most of you know how that goes) even tho it is 6 months away :) And we know that Christmas is after that YAY!!!!
I have also seen a change in my personality. I no longer feel the need to be defensive all the time. I have gotten so used to always having to fight against the current of life that sailing swiftly with the current is quite pleasing! I don't remember the last time I was defensive or arrogant with anyone...it used to be a daily occurance...I DON'T miss it at all!!! I LOVE being pleasant, funny, charming, silly, and fun this is who I truly am in my heart and in my soul! All the other things that came out in me I truly believe were a product of my enviroment! Of course we do have days when we butt heads with people that is natural and everyone experiences it, but letting it happen and moving forward is the key...sometimes I struggle with that and carry emotions away, but not nearly as frequently or vehemently as before....if and when I do I apolgize to those affected.
So there you have it guys another insight into me. I am a complex creature sometimes altho I try very hard not to be. My goal is to be simple and fun! If I fail it isn't for lack of trying. I hope that there can be someone in the world that loves and cares for me....just by me being me...isn't that everyones goal...someone who can love and respect me even with my flaws ( I am strong enough to know I have many) and imperfections!
I cherish the relationship I am in now and work everyday to realize this is how things should be :) I pray we can make it work so that we are both as happy in the future as we are now! I look forward to everytime Phil and I are together :) I also look forward to sharing him with all of you...but just a little bit hehe!
Hope everyone is having a great day! May God Bless you and keep you safe!
Hugs
Stacy
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Why must I think! Current mood: blah
I am back :) I am still doing well here in PA, but man sometimes I hate my brain! Work has been insane Inventory is a disaster...upgraded from yesterday's MESS! I have been so frustrated the last 2 days. I am seeing some light tho so don't worry about me! So now on to the title of the blog....
I am a thinker and yes anyone who knows me knows this can be true. Most of the time I am spontaneous and go with the flow, BUT sometimes my brain takes over...not usually a good thing for my mood, my life, or my friends. Yesterday I used my brain WAY WAY WAY too much. I was comtemplating everything. My divorce, my life, my mood....EVERYTHING! So those who know me know...this lead to large amounts of tears. I cried yes, but felt better in the end. I am glad that is past me! Good God I HATE to cry! It is such a sign of weakness to me and even tho I have discussed this in therapy a BAZILLION times that it is natural and not a weakness I can't help but feel like the stupid female who is weak and helpless when it happens to me. So anyway the tears have passed I have finished my thinking and come out feeling ok. I know that stress often is what leads me to this state...and I had a lot of that yesterday. To those reading this....I am fine please don't worry about me....it's just me LOL! I am feeling 100% better today. I did determine tho that I have a lot of life changes going on in my life and perhaps I needed a day to contemplate what I have been putting off in a tactic of avoidance....knowing this day would lead to tears I didn't want to cry.
I haven't updated you guys in a while. So Scott signed the separation agreement WAY YAY!! So I am officially single...well not really single just done with Scott LOL! I am dating the most wonderful guy in the world...Phil, who some of you know, for those of you who don't know him....don't worry you will :) July 8th the divorce will be final and I am so anxious for that day! Of course 3 months from when I filed is July 4th Independence day...moreso than EVER! My name is officially Stacy Lorraine Roberts again another BIG YAY! Thursday I will get my drivers license changed :)
Thursday I also go to Scranton for a Dr appt with the Dr who performed the baby procedure a yr and a half ago. This appt has been on my mind for a long time. I am glad I am going for sure and I am very anxious to learn whether or not I can have children safely. Most of you know I have always wanted children...just not with the situation I was in before...so this is an important answer in my life. Another reason perhaps I was crying yesterday?!...
I remodelled the apt a couple weeks ago that was AWESOME! I changed the bedroom so it isn't the same room as before. It is where the office used to be! I painted the walls the color name is Giggle hehe! so me I know! Last night I put up some mullions and flowers in there also. It looks so girly..not me at all :) But I LOVE it! I never sleep in there tho that is the funny part. If I am home it is couch city for me....I just fall asleep watching TV and plus the fact that...that was my bedroom for 2 yrs! So after I washed dishes last night, hung the mullions and flowers, had dinner with mom and dad, and took a shower..all before 730 PM I layed on the couch watching TV and was asleep before 8 PM HAHA funny....that is a day in my life for sure...defintely most of you won't even find that strange! I even woke up at 5:15 AM on the dot without an alarm clock :) now that is shocking!
So I think that is the update from here! I am sorry it is not the usual cheerful life is grand post, BUT sometimes life for me just isn't fun or cheerful :) So my thoughts for today are this...Sometimes it is better to follow your heart instead of over-thinking life's challenges! Sometimes we just need a day to reflect and make sure we are where we want to be even if it causes some tears and questions :) I hope you are all doing well out there!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
Why must I think! Current mood: blah
I am back :) I am still doing well here in PA, but man sometimes I hate my brain! Work has been insane Inventory is a disaster...upgraded from yesterday's MESS! I have been so frustrated the last 2 days. I am seeing some light tho so don't worry about me! So now on to the title of the blog....
I am a thinker and yes anyone who knows me knows this can be true. Most of the time I am spontaneous and go with the flow, BUT sometimes my brain takes over...not usually a good thing for my mood, my life, or my friends. Yesterday I used my brain WAY WAY WAY too much. I was comtemplating everything. My divorce, my life, my mood....EVERYTHING! So those who know me know...this lead to large amounts of tears. I cried yes, but felt better in the end. I am glad that is past me! Good God I HATE to cry! It is such a sign of weakness to me and even tho I have discussed this in therapy a BAZILLION times that it is natural and not a weakness I can't help but feel like the stupid female who is weak and helpless when it happens to me. So anyway the tears have passed I have finished my thinking and come out feeling ok. I know that stress often is what leads me to this state...and I had a lot of that yesterday. To those reading this....I am fine please don't worry about me....it's just me LOL! I am feeling 100% better today. I did determine tho that I have a lot of life changes going on in my life and perhaps I needed a day to contemplate what I have been putting off in a tactic of avoidance....knowing this day would lead to tears I didn't want to cry.
I haven't updated you guys in a while. So Scott signed the separation agreement WAY YAY!! So I am officially single...well not really single just done with Scott LOL! I am dating the most wonderful guy in the world...Phil, who some of you know, for those of you who don't know him....don't worry you will :) July 8th the divorce will be final and I am so anxious for that day! Of course 3 months from when I filed is July 4th Independence day...moreso than EVER! My name is officially Stacy Lorraine Roberts again another BIG YAY! Thursday I will get my drivers license changed :)
Thursday I also go to Scranton for a Dr appt with the Dr who performed the baby procedure a yr and a half ago. This appt has been on my mind for a long time. I am glad I am going for sure and I am very anxious to learn whether or not I can have children safely. Most of you know I have always wanted children...just not with the situation I was in before...so this is an important answer in my life. Another reason perhaps I was crying yesterday?!...
I remodelled the apt a couple weeks ago that was AWESOME! I changed the bedroom so it isn't the same room as before. It is where the office used to be! I painted the walls the color name is Giggle hehe! so me I know! Last night I put up some mullions and flowers in there also. It looks so girly..not me at all :) But I LOVE it! I never sleep in there tho that is the funny part. If I am home it is couch city for me....I just fall asleep watching TV and plus the fact that...that was my bedroom for 2 yrs! So after I washed dishes last night, hung the mullions and flowers, had dinner with mom and dad, and took a shower..all before 730 PM I layed on the couch watching TV and was asleep before 8 PM HAHA funny....that is a day in my life for sure...defintely most of you won't even find that strange! I even woke up at 5:15 AM on the dot without an alarm clock :) now that is shocking!
So I think that is the update from here! I am sorry it is not the usual cheerful life is grand post, BUT sometimes life for me just isn't fun or cheerful :) So my thoughts for today are this...Sometimes it is better to follow your heart instead of over-thinking life's challenges! Sometimes we just need a day to reflect and make sure we are where we want to be even if it causes some tears and questions :) I hope you are all doing well out there!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Just another day! Current mood: loved
Here I appear once again from nowhere! I have been on the go for a little over a month now and I LOVE it! I have no time for boredom like before. I have found that there are new and exciting things to learn each day...if you surround yourself with people who enjoy things you haven't experienced. I like being busy and not sitting home watching TV like I used to. I have learned so much stuff in the last month it is amazing!!
I do want to send a prayer out to my friends in Florida who are experiencing all the fires. Please stay safe and know that your friends are all also in my prayers. May the fires stay at bay and be contained in a timely manner.
I am continuing my countdown until things are final with the divorce. I am at 51 days right now...I am also working on changing my name back to Roberts too. I have thought about it since everything went down, but with a little encouragement from Phil and his theory on a clean slate I have been won over! I have made a couple phone calls to no avail so my next step is asking my lawyer.
In other news we are celebrating in grand fashion on Friday night the 1st anniversary of Donnie and Kathy!! This was the best wedding i have ever attended and can't wait til the whole bridal party is back together again! Other than that there isn't much new in my world.
I just thought I would update a little and express my gratitude to those responsible for making the last month of my life the BEST it has ever been! Here is hoping that the future holds just as much joy!
Love ya
Stacy
Just another day! Current mood: loved
Here I appear once again from nowhere! I have been on the go for a little over a month now and I LOVE it! I have no time for boredom like before. I have found that there are new and exciting things to learn each day...if you surround yourself with people who enjoy things you haven't experienced. I like being busy and not sitting home watching TV like I used to. I have learned so much stuff in the last month it is amazing!!
I do want to send a prayer out to my friends in Florida who are experiencing all the fires. Please stay safe and know that your friends are all also in my prayers. May the fires stay at bay and be contained in a timely manner.
I am continuing my countdown until things are final with the divorce. I am at 51 days right now...I am also working on changing my name back to Roberts too. I have thought about it since everything went down, but with a little encouragement from Phil and his theory on a clean slate I have been won over! I have made a couple phone calls to no avail so my next step is asking my lawyer.
In other news we are celebrating in grand fashion on Friday night the 1st anniversary of Donnie and Kathy!! This was the best wedding i have ever attended and can't wait til the whole bridal party is back together again! Other than that there isn't much new in my world.
I just thought I would update a little and express my gratitude to those responsible for making the last month of my life the BEST it has ever been! Here is hoping that the future holds just as much joy!
Love ya
Stacy
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
A Beautiful Day Current mood: thankful
I have thought a lot today about life. It's amazing the things in life we often take for granted. I realized today just how many people in my life love me and care about the things that are important to me. There are so many people who suffer with depression and other illnesses who can't see these things...I have been there before myself, but I am so much better now. I can see clearly the things that matter most to me now. I thank and appreciate all of you who stood by me through the dark days and pray that you can now enjoy the light days! The people I have chosen to surround myself with these days make me smile and definately make it easy to enjoy life :)
I have had several Dr appts recently and some more scheduled but the news is all great. I am very happy to report in at 178 lbs and a size 12 :) This is being caused by the insulin blocker medication I am on and stress which is normal and the Dr was thrilled with the progress. I have to return to the Dr who delivered the baby for a check-up to verify all systems are still ok and there is no damage...I am very anxious about this visit, but it needs to be done. I can handle it with my support system.
I think that is all the news really from me. I did see the psychitrist last night he was thrilled with my Bi-Polar control....YAY :) This means 2 months before the next visit then back to 3 months :) With the price of gas and co-pays Thank God for that news! He told me to keep doing whatever I am doing :) hehehe I have no intentions of quitting any of my new activities!
I pray today that God looks over all the people in my life and keeps them safe!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
A Beautiful Day Current mood: thankful
I have thought a lot today about life. It's amazing the things in life we often take for granted. I realized today just how many people in my life love me and care about the things that are important to me. There are so many people who suffer with depression and other illnesses who can't see these things...I have been there before myself, but I am so much better now. I can see clearly the things that matter most to me now. I thank and appreciate all of you who stood by me through the dark days and pray that you can now enjoy the light days! The people I have chosen to surround myself with these days make me smile and definately make it easy to enjoy life :)
I have had several Dr appts recently and some more scheduled but the news is all great. I am very happy to report in at 178 lbs and a size 12 :) This is being caused by the insulin blocker medication I am on and stress which is normal and the Dr was thrilled with the progress. I have to return to the Dr who delivered the baby for a check-up to verify all systems are still ok and there is no damage...I am very anxious about this visit, but it needs to be done. I can handle it with my support system.
I think that is all the news really from me. I did see the psychitrist last night he was thrilled with my Bi-Polar control....YAY :) This means 2 months before the next visit then back to 3 months :) With the price of gas and co-pays Thank God for that news! He told me to keep doing whatever I am doing :) hehehe I have no intentions of quitting any of my new activities!
I pray today that God looks over all the people in my life and keeps them safe!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
Monday, May 05, 2008
Monday, May 05, 2008
News from my small corner of the world! Current mood: rockin Category: Life
Ok so here is the latest from my small corner of the world! I had yet another AMAZING weekend! I am so dreaming I swear I am....can it really be possible to be happy this often?!?! I haven't enjoyed life this much in a decade! I am enjoying every minute of everyday and I LOVE being happy
So I went shopping with mom on Friday afternoon..got a late start, but it was still an amazing day spent with mom :) Her and I always have fun. I bought more new clothes...yep you guessed it because I am now a size 12...down yet another size! And some really cute shirts...that I believe truly fit my personality to a T!! I have gotten lots of compliments on them so far! I am hoping that soon I will have pictures to add to my profile showing some of my new stuff!
Work was frustrating on Saturday, but all will be well I just need to learn to speak up instead of getting taken advantage of all the time. It is one of those things I would rather keep the peace than make the waves...I will get it resolved :)
Sunday was really a great day! I didn't do much of anything, but hang out! I enjoyed the outdoors, the indoors, and sleeping. Spent time with my male counterpart most of the day and of course those who know me....know that is my favorite thing to do these days. We spent most of the day just chatting about life, plans, and learning new things. I even started to learn the Russian alphabet a bit in the morning. Then I made it home just in time for mom's homecooked dinner WOO HOO! Stuffed peppers without the peppers for me :) Visited with the parents for most of the evening hours and then went to bed around 9 PM....all that extra sleep made it hard to get up this AM...the more sleep I get the more I want...this would be why I try to stay up til at least 11 PM :)
Well that is all the update from here for now I do believe! I am still doing wonderfully, I am still happy, and I am still grateful for all my friends love and support! Each of you I cherish all for different reasons! Thank you for the Love, Support and Friendship!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
News from my small corner of the world! Current mood: rockin Category: Life
Ok so here is the latest from my small corner of the world! I had yet another AMAZING weekend! I am so dreaming I swear I am....can it really be possible to be happy this often?!?! I haven't enjoyed life this much in a decade! I am enjoying every minute of everyday and I LOVE being happy
So I went shopping with mom on Friday afternoon..got a late start, but it was still an amazing day spent with mom :) Her and I always have fun. I bought more new clothes...yep you guessed it because I am now a size 12...down yet another size! And some really cute shirts...that I believe truly fit my personality to a T!! I have gotten lots of compliments on them so far! I am hoping that soon I will have pictures to add to my profile showing some of my new stuff!
Work was frustrating on Saturday, but all will be well I just need to learn to speak up instead of getting taken advantage of all the time. It is one of those things I would rather keep the peace than make the waves...I will get it resolved :)
Sunday was really a great day! I didn't do much of anything, but hang out! I enjoyed the outdoors, the indoors, and sleeping. Spent time with my male counterpart most of the day and of course those who know me....know that is my favorite thing to do these days. We spent most of the day just chatting about life, plans, and learning new things. I even started to learn the Russian alphabet a bit in the morning. Then I made it home just in time for mom's homecooked dinner WOO HOO! Stuffed peppers without the peppers for me :) Visited with the parents for most of the evening hours and then went to bed around 9 PM....all that extra sleep made it hard to get up this AM...the more sleep I get the more I want...this would be why I try to stay up til at least 11 PM :)
Well that is all the update from here for now I do believe! I am still doing wonderfully, I am still happy, and I am still grateful for all my friends love and support! Each of you I cherish all for different reasons! Thank you for the Love, Support and Friendship!
Love and Hugs
Stacy
Monday, April 28, 2008
Ten Years Ago:
I was in college doing all those fun college activities and thinking I knew what I wanted out of life. Preparing for graduation in a year and trying to get my ducks in a row. I was also worried about not being in school anymore and having to be grown up!
Five Things on the To-Do List:
Clean my apt
Redecorate my apt
Give Prancer some mommy attn
do my dishes
enjoy life
Three Bad Habits
1. Smoking
2. Eating bad food like Speg O's
3. Talking too much :)
Places I've Lived:
Montrose Pa
Mansfield Pa
That's it lol :)
What I would do if I Suddenly Became a Millionaire:
Pay off my bills
help my friends with bills
buy a new car so I could save the Cruiser
buy some clothes that FIT me hehe
put the rest into savings for my retirement :)
Five Things you Probably Don't Know About Me -- This is the hard one!
1. I love learning anything new
2. I would love to tour the US and Australia if I had the money
3. I love to be the center of attention
4. I have a tattoo addiction and must have 9 to complete the collection hehe 2 more to go
5. I HATE shoes and socks
There Elizabeth it is complete hehehe! Those 5 things you don't know are HARD....you pretty much know most of that!
I was in college doing all those fun college activities and thinking I knew what I wanted out of life. Preparing for graduation in a year and trying to get my ducks in a row. I was also worried about not being in school anymore and having to be grown up!
Five Things on the To-Do List:
Clean my apt
Redecorate my apt
Give Prancer some mommy attn
do my dishes
enjoy life
Three Bad Habits
1. Smoking
2. Eating bad food like Speg O's
3. Talking too much :)
Places I've Lived:
Montrose Pa
Mansfield Pa
That's it lol :)
What I would do if I Suddenly Became a Millionaire:
Pay off my bills
help my friends with bills
buy a new car so I could save the Cruiser
buy some clothes that FIT me hehe
put the rest into savings for my retirement :)
Five Things you Probably Don't Know About Me -- This is the hard one!
1. I love learning anything new
2. I would love to tour the US and Australia if I had the money
3. I love to be the center of attention
4. I have a tattoo addiction and must have 9 to complete the collection hehe 2 more to go
5. I HATE shoes and socks
There Elizabeth it is complete hehehe! Those 5 things you don't know are HARD....you pretty much know most of that!
Life is good
Well I am back again :) I can say that happiness abounds in my life at this point in time. I honestly haven't felt this good in years. I smile constantly so much my face actually hurts...kinda a wonderful feeling after so long. I have very few worries anymore and enjoy every moment for what it is. I can't even believe the changes I have been through in a little less than a month. I have done a complete 180. I cherish every moment with friends and family that I get and soak in everything. I am relaxed and enjoying once again being 30 something hehe! I finally feel like I am 30 something again instead of like 60 Thank God for that hehe! I pray that my life continues on it's current path for a long time. I am learning new things it seems everyday, meeting new fun people, and forgetting my worries. The apartment is coming along as far as cleaning and decorating which is awesome. I am actually contemplating internet service again so that I can keep in better contact with my friends across the country. Some of you I know are missing the phone calls hehe, but fear not it isn't because I am in hiding it is because I actually have found things to do that I completely enjoy with my whole being! I just wanted to let everyone know I am doing well and don't worry...I have decided that Stacy is going to be just fine :) As my profile says Life isn't about money and material things...it's about special moments that make you smile :) So please know that I am out and about finding those special moments with new friends so that I can be the best that I can be today tomorrow and forever! God has blessed me with the strength to change my circumstances and I Love him everyday for granting me that power. He has also blessed me with wonderful people to surround myself with! I am very excited about all my planned new adventures and learning experiences :) I am sure that you will all read about them as they occur!
Hugs
Stacy ( Happy at Last)
Well I am back again :) I can say that happiness abounds in my life at this point in time. I honestly haven't felt this good in years. I smile constantly so much my face actually hurts...kinda a wonderful feeling after so long. I have very few worries anymore and enjoy every moment for what it is. I can't even believe the changes I have been through in a little less than a month. I have done a complete 180. I cherish every moment with friends and family that I get and soak in everything. I am relaxed and enjoying once again being 30 something hehe! I finally feel like I am 30 something again instead of like 60 Thank God for that hehe! I pray that my life continues on it's current path for a long time. I am learning new things it seems everyday, meeting new fun people, and forgetting my worries. The apartment is coming along as far as cleaning and decorating which is awesome. I am actually contemplating internet service again so that I can keep in better contact with my friends across the country. Some of you I know are missing the phone calls hehe, but fear not it isn't because I am in hiding it is because I actually have found things to do that I completely enjoy with my whole being! I just wanted to let everyone know I am doing well and don't worry...I have decided that Stacy is going to be just fine :) As my profile says Life isn't about money and material things...it's about special moments that make you smile :) So please know that I am out and about finding those special moments with new friends so that I can be the best that I can be today tomorrow and forever! God has blessed me with the strength to change my circumstances and I Love him everyday for granting me that power. He has also blessed me with wonderful people to surround myself with! I am very excited about all my planned new adventures and learning experiences :) I am sure that you will all read about them as they occur!
Hugs
Stacy ( Happy at Last)
Monday, April 21, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Finally some peace and friendship :) Category: Friends
I know it's been a while since I was here to blog, but fear not my pals I am back. I wanted to update everyone on happenings in my little world. I am getting divorced I know many of you are shouting for joy right now ROFL! Yes I know I should have listened...I did 8 yrs later. Anyway I am so thankful for each and every one of my friends right now even more than ever before! I truly adore you all....some of you are off the charts with your support and love! This is just the begining of a new chapter in my life. It is starting out so well with which I am thrilled! I can't help but wonder and dream of what is next for me. I look forward to spending time with everyone more often now...of course this may or may not include a new male partner in my life you just never know with me! The divorce will be final in July sometime...until then I plan on hanging out with everyone I can :) Once it is final perhaps I will have found someone to date that makes me smile and you all enjoy as much as I do :) I will try to keep you all posted. Thank you to everyone for the support and love! And those of you have have bought me some drinks....THANK YOU!!!! I actually totally enjoy going out now!
Hugs
Stacy
Finally some peace and friendship :) Category: Friends
I know it's been a while since I was here to blog, but fear not my pals I am back. I wanted to update everyone on happenings in my little world. I am getting divorced I know many of you are shouting for joy right now ROFL! Yes I know I should have listened...I did 8 yrs later. Anyway I am so thankful for each and every one of my friends right now even more than ever before! I truly adore you all....some of you are off the charts with your support and love! This is just the begining of a new chapter in my life. It is starting out so well with which I am thrilled! I can't help but wonder and dream of what is next for me. I look forward to spending time with everyone more often now...of course this may or may not include a new male partner in my life you just never know with me! The divorce will be final in July sometime...until then I plan on hanging out with everyone I can :) Once it is final perhaps I will have found someone to date that makes me smile and you all enjoy as much as I do :) I will try to keep you all posted. Thank you to everyone for the support and love! And those of you have have bought me some drinks....THANK YOU!!!! I actually totally enjoy going out now!
Hugs
Stacy
Monday, April 21, 2008
Best Weekend EVER!!!!! Current mood: bouncy Category: Life
Ok I am back to give everyone another update on life! I had the BEST, I am not lying here, the absolute BEST weekend of my LIFE! The weather was simply amazing warm sunny wonderful and just plain perfect! I shared my weekend with the aforementioned male counterpart on Friday and after work Saturday! It is so mind boggling what a difference one person can make in your life. We did nothing too special as far as events....but the happiness it caused was purely beyond all words. I know most of you aren't used to hearing me say happy things hehe :) Most of the people I hang out with do usually see happy me because the fact is I don't want to be unhappy nor share my unhappiness with anyone. Those of you who do know the unhappy moments I thank you for supporting me and and helping through the struggles. So anyway I wanted to share this shining moment in my life with you all. It was a simple romantic weekend that has made my heart and soul so full of life I can't describe it!!! I am begining to think....(hold on to your hats here) I am pretty, smart, and fun!! I know I am thinking these things how AMAZING is that! I have never believed I was any of them, but I TRULY in my heart and soul am actually begining to believe it....I am worthy of being loved by someone and cared for because I am me and no other reason. There are tears in my eyes as I write this because I have never felt the happiness I feel these days! Another amazing thing happened this morning when I woke up...well was woke up rudely by Prancer wanting food ROFL....I wasn't sick to my stomach. It's been 3 yrs since that has occured. I am so used to waking up sick that this morning I was waiting for it to kick in and it never did! Finally the stress and worry are gone from my life. That is the first major sign my body has given me that indeed LIFE IS GOOD! No matter what happens from here on out I know I am strong enough to handle it and be ok!! I am not " in a relationship" (not that I am aware of yet anyway) mainly just spending time with a really great guy :) You never know we may end up in a relationship in the future when my divorce is final, but until then I look forward to every moment we get to share together. I am very excited about life right now!!!! Ok so enough of my rambling....I know some of you that read this will really appreciate what these words are saying!!!!!
Hugs and Love to everyone
Stacy
Best Weekend EVER!!!!! Current mood: bouncy Category: Life
Ok I am back to give everyone another update on life! I had the BEST, I am not lying here, the absolute BEST weekend of my LIFE! The weather was simply amazing warm sunny wonderful and just plain perfect! I shared my weekend with the aforementioned male counterpart on Friday and after work Saturday! It is so mind boggling what a difference one person can make in your life. We did nothing too special as far as events....but the happiness it caused was purely beyond all words. I know most of you aren't used to hearing me say happy things hehe :) Most of the people I hang out with do usually see happy me because the fact is I don't want to be unhappy nor share my unhappiness with anyone. Those of you who do know the unhappy moments I thank you for supporting me and and helping through the struggles. So anyway I wanted to share this shining moment in my life with you all. It was a simple romantic weekend that has made my heart and soul so full of life I can't describe it!!! I am begining to think....(hold on to your hats here) I am pretty, smart, and fun!! I know I am thinking these things how AMAZING is that! I have never believed I was any of them, but I TRULY in my heart and soul am actually begining to believe it....I am worthy of being loved by someone and cared for because I am me and no other reason. There are tears in my eyes as I write this because I have never felt the happiness I feel these days! Another amazing thing happened this morning when I woke up...well was woke up rudely by Prancer wanting food ROFL....I wasn't sick to my stomach. It's been 3 yrs since that has occured. I am so used to waking up sick that this morning I was waiting for it to kick in and it never did! Finally the stress and worry are gone from my life. That is the first major sign my body has given me that indeed LIFE IS GOOD! No matter what happens from here on out I know I am strong enough to handle it and be ok!! I am not " in a relationship" (not that I am aware of yet anyway) mainly just spending time with a really great guy :) You never know we may end up in a relationship in the future when my divorce is final, but until then I look forward to every moment we get to share together. I am very excited about life right now!!!! Ok so enough of my rambling....I know some of you that read this will really appreciate what these words are saying!!!!!
Hugs and Love to everyone
Stacy
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Ok so today's news! Well actually this news is from a while ago, but I am filing for divorce. It was a very hard decision and took me 8 years to be brave/strong enough to actually do it! I feel like 10 tons of weight have been lifted off me to be completely honest! I can no longer worry myself with his decisions. I need to take care of Stacy and make me the best I can be in the end. That is a really hard thing to decide I will tell you that! Best decision I have made in my life tho and I am thankful to God and my friends for helping me through it :)
Other than this there isn't really much news. I am living alone YAY!! Totally love it hehe! The dog is wonderful much more relaxed too! I work like crazy still and for some unknown reason have decided to pick up yet another night! WOW! Wed Thurs and Sat nights are now occupied with waitressing. The bosses wife is going to finish the cleaning...perhaps she thought it was taking me too long I am not sure, but that is one less night for me to be there! I was assured I had done nothing wrong so I guess I go with that.
Ah well life is crazy as usual in my world hehehe! Honestly if it wasn't would I be able to deal...probably not!! Speaking of Craziness...get this...I have liked this guy ( we are friends) since I met him about a year ago. I was always told he was Gay so never even thought about the jokes we played on each other. Well come to find out he isn't Gay it is all just a joke they play on HIM. So I inform him about my divorce thinking hey we are friends maybe we could hang out sometime.....oh yea RIGHT he freaks out on me and still isn't speaking. I find out that everyone is telling him shit about me :( They want him to hook up with me....i don't want this at all, but apparently talking to me isn't an option anymore :( So now I have lost his friendship because other people run their mouth ASSES! But this does say something about said boy too tho because if he was a nice quality guy he would have came to me and said....hey I was joking totally I am not interested sorry if I lead you on...blah blah blah....so anyway I thought that fit the craziness mode! I really do hope him and I can fix our friendship tho because he is totally the funniest guy EVER if you get to know him! I love playing jokes on him! I am pretty convinced PA boys are retards LOL....anyone disagree????
Ok I gotta go for now, but I will be back fear not! I will probably see the retard boy on Saturday night so hopefully I will have an update for you whether or not we have fixed our broken friendship.
Latas gatas
Stacy
Other than this there isn't really much news. I am living alone YAY!! Totally love it hehe! The dog is wonderful much more relaxed too! I work like crazy still and for some unknown reason have decided to pick up yet another night! WOW! Wed Thurs and Sat nights are now occupied with waitressing. The bosses wife is going to finish the cleaning...perhaps she thought it was taking me too long I am not sure, but that is one less night for me to be there! I was assured I had done nothing wrong so I guess I go with that.
Ah well life is crazy as usual in my world hehehe! Honestly if it wasn't would I be able to deal...probably not!! Speaking of Craziness...get this...I have liked this guy ( we are friends) since I met him about a year ago. I was always told he was Gay so never even thought about the jokes we played on each other. Well come to find out he isn't Gay it is all just a joke they play on HIM. So I inform him about my divorce thinking hey we are friends maybe we could hang out sometime.....oh yea RIGHT he freaks out on me and still isn't speaking. I find out that everyone is telling him shit about me :( They want him to hook up with me....i don't want this at all, but apparently talking to me isn't an option anymore :( So now I have lost his friendship because other people run their mouth ASSES! But this does say something about said boy too tho because if he was a nice quality guy he would have came to me and said....hey I was joking totally I am not interested sorry if I lead you on...blah blah blah....so anyway I thought that fit the craziness mode! I really do hope him and I can fix our friendship tho because he is totally the funniest guy EVER if you get to know him! I love playing jokes on him! I am pretty convinced PA boys are retards LOL....anyone disagree????
Ok I gotta go for now, but I will be back fear not! I will probably see the retard boy on Saturday night so hopefully I will have an update for you whether or not we have fixed our broken friendship.
Latas gatas
Stacy
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
I forgot to mention in the last post......I am down to 186 lbs! I can't believe that just a year and a half ago I weighed in at a WHOPPING 275 lbs hence that HORRIBLE picture on here! I definately need a new one of me being my skinny self! Those who only know me on line will see a huge difference those who know me irl well you've already witnessed the transformation....from yucky milk work to butterfly ROFL! The Dr called with blood work results today and everything is fine so why am I losing weight...no idea. I don't eat like I used to but that hasn't changed in the last 6 months I run stairs at work that also hasn't changed in almost a year so why am I still losing?? Doesn't that usually level off?? Ahhh well I ain't worried the heart is still tickin LOL! Ok I think that is really all my news!
Stacy
Stacy
Well everyone I am back! It's been a while. First my computer died so I didn't have one :( Then work has been crazzzzzy :) This is a really good thing! So whilst I have been away things have really changed!! I finally did the one thing I have been wanting to do for 3 yrs...filed for divorce! officially I will file on Friday, but you know what I mean hehe! I feel the best I have felt in a long long time! I no longer have so many worries about drinking! I can now go out and have a good time without looking over my shoulder...it's kinda nice! I no longer get woke up early either because my house is silent :) I didn't know how hard living was for the last 8 yrs until now! Anyway I am so glad ( as some of my friends say) I grew a pair ROFL! I LOVE the 2nd job and the bartenders I work with. They are all amazing and such fun! It gets better every week. I hope to find some great friends to hang out with now that I am single. Scott moved most of his stuff out last Saturday, but we remain on friendly terms no fighting for us. He is leaving his furniture with me until he finds a place. So anyway that is the biggest news I have had in a while! Work news is also about. Chelsea Clinton and her uncle Hugh Rodham will be here tomorrow to tour out manufacturing facility...altho I am not a Clinton support or even a Democrat it is always fun to meet new people!! I hope and pray that this is a good thing for our little business. At least get us on the news for a GOOD reason this time! Those who know me know EXACTLY what I am talking about.. I must sign off for you, but felt bad having not updated everyone!
remember **SMILE** it makes the sunshine in your soul shine through the clouds in your eyes!
Hugs and Love
Stacy
remember **SMILE** it makes the sunshine in your soul shine through the clouds in your eyes!
Hugs and Love
Stacy
Monday, February 11, 2008
WElll I haven't posted in a while....I guess my excuse...letting Mitt dropping out of the race sink in!! I am sooo sad about this and just hope that 2012 he takes it all! I still can't decide what to do in the election now! I refuse to vote for as I call him McCan't...thanks for that Elizabeth :) Huck Finn is just tooo conservative for me :( and too anti Gay...like who cares if they get married for real?! I mean honestly..doesn't it state in the Good book that the only judge is God...soooo who is Huck Finn, me, you, or any other human to judge this....they will be judge on their day by God. Ok yea soooo anyway! I am sad and have wanted to let things settle in..so I may just write Mitt in for the general election because I can't put my vote where I don't believe...now in the primary I have no idea what to do because in PA you must vote your party and I am so in a hate relationship with the party right now I know not what to do :(
Sooo anyway enough on that front hehe!
It is frigid in PA these days with a weeks worth of bad weather headed our way...I don't know who sent this to us but TAKE IT BACK!!!!!! I am sooo looking forward to Spring flowers and warm weather I can't even wait. It is a time of renewal and I can't wait :) So the Lentan season is upon us...and altho I am not Catholic I give something up every year..this yr was so hard to decide....I think I have chosen Chocolate tho so no more for me!!
So now on the work front things are busy and I feel as tho I am constantly moving! Having two jobs really does cut down on any free time I might have. I have picked up Mondays at the second job to finish up the cleaning so I can get it done good lord enough of the cleaning already! I don't know why I bother since I know it won't ever stay that way unless I do it :( BUT the extra money is needed so I keep plugging away at it...I am sure I will get pd more to do the stainless steel since it is way nasty hehe! The first job is busy which is good...since this is usually our reallllly slow time. I am in hopes I can get my bill consolidated on Friday with dad's credit union so that I can make less payments and get a lower interest rate. of course I realize I won't be able to get a big enough loan to consolidate all my credit cards but hopefully 2 of them. Any help is good help at this point!!! I got to get them gone already...I have learned my lesson please help me move on!!!
well I think this post is long enough for now....I miss talking to everyone terribly and HATE that seems my free time is never anyone elses free time...
Elizabeth I know you will read this hehe...I realllllly hope we can connect someday soon I so enjoy our talks...for some reason you bring peace to me...we connect on so many different levels and I feel like such a better person after we talk! I love you:) Your birthday post was AWESOME to Charlie!
Ciao
Stacy
Sooo anyway enough on that front hehe!
It is frigid in PA these days with a weeks worth of bad weather headed our way...I don't know who sent this to us but TAKE IT BACK!!!!!! I am sooo looking forward to Spring flowers and warm weather I can't even wait. It is a time of renewal and I can't wait :) So the Lentan season is upon us...and altho I am not Catholic I give something up every year..this yr was so hard to decide....I think I have chosen Chocolate tho so no more for me!!
So now on the work front things are busy and I feel as tho I am constantly moving! Having two jobs really does cut down on any free time I might have. I have picked up Mondays at the second job to finish up the cleaning so I can get it done good lord enough of the cleaning already! I don't know why I bother since I know it won't ever stay that way unless I do it :( BUT the extra money is needed so I keep plugging away at it...I am sure I will get pd more to do the stainless steel since it is way nasty hehe! The first job is busy which is good...since this is usually our reallllly slow time. I am in hopes I can get my bill consolidated on Friday with dad's credit union so that I can make less payments and get a lower interest rate. of course I realize I won't be able to get a big enough loan to consolidate all my credit cards but hopefully 2 of them. Any help is good help at this point!!! I got to get them gone already...I have learned my lesson please help me move on!!!
well I think this post is long enough for now....I miss talking to everyone terribly and HATE that seems my free time is never anyone elses free time...
Elizabeth I know you will read this hehe...I realllllly hope we can connect someday soon I so enjoy our talks...for some reason you bring peace to me...we connect on so many different levels and I feel like such a better person after we talk! I love you:) Your birthday post was AWESOME to Charlie!
Ciao
Stacy
Monday, January 28, 2008
Ok all so if you are keeping tabs on me and this blog you know I have been reading the book of Morman. I am still continuing with that endeavor and loving it! I am up to Mosiah chapter 2...no I haven't passed that yet Elizabeth LOL! Work is crazy with inventory being today!
I have decided finally that Mitt Romney will be who I vote for in the primaries. I have been watching everything I can get my eyes on and the debate last week sealed the deal for me! I like that he not only answers the questions but give details on his proposed ideas and how he wants to accomplish them! It was between him and John McCain, but John didn't sell me during the debate :( I will honestly say I will be heartbroken if Mitt doesn't get the nomination this year. He is perfect for me...right in the middle between conservative and moderate! Altho as a Republican there are 2 issues none of them will agree wtih me on..Gay marriage and Abortion, but those aren't the issues I am most worried about this time around....ECONOMY baby that is what I want to know about!!! Oh and did I mention that Reagan was my favorite president in history! Yea and Mitt quotes him ... yea that is what I like to hear :) If he can make the economy like it was under Reagan things will be Golden and I think he can! I mean look at the finacial benefits he has created for himself.... ok so off my political soapbox hehehe!
Life is good in PA for today. And it is supposed to warm up soon OH GOODIE!!! I can't wait for Spring Winter kills me and my Bi Polar....Thank God for Lithium :)
Hugs to everyone....until next time!
Stacy
I have decided finally that Mitt Romney will be who I vote for in the primaries. I have been watching everything I can get my eyes on and the debate last week sealed the deal for me! I like that he not only answers the questions but give details on his proposed ideas and how he wants to accomplish them! It was between him and John McCain, but John didn't sell me during the debate :( I will honestly say I will be heartbroken if Mitt doesn't get the nomination this year. He is perfect for me...right in the middle between conservative and moderate! Altho as a Republican there are 2 issues none of them will agree wtih me on..Gay marriage and Abortion, but those aren't the issues I am most worried about this time around....ECONOMY baby that is what I want to know about!!! Oh and did I mention that Reagan was my favorite president in history! Yea and Mitt quotes him ... yea that is what I like to hear :) If he can make the economy like it was under Reagan things will be Golden and I think he can! I mean look at the finacial benefits he has created for himself.... ok so off my political soapbox hehehe!
Life is good in PA for today. And it is supposed to warm up soon OH GOODIE!!! I can't wait for Spring Winter kills me and my Bi Polar....Thank God for Lithium :)
Hugs to everyone....until next time!
Stacy
Monday, January 14, 2008
Ok so here I am posting again for the first time in a while....Thanks Elizabeth for reminding me LOL! Today was a quiet day at work. I thought a lot about Utah....I often wonder what it is like there! If I ever get the $$ I am going to fly out there and meet my friends and check out the sites! I want to attend a Morman church service to see what it is like...where better than SLC!! I have been reading the book of Morman, but can't seem to find the end of second Nephi ( I was warned about that LOL) It's really wonderful altho it seems to bring about a lot of controversy in my Christain friends, but not too much :) I am one who loves to read anything I can get ahold of so why not read that! It's interesting really!!!! Other than that life is nuts just plain crazy! The second job ( new one) is AWESOME!! I love the people and have so much fun even tho it is really hard work!!! I have tho grown to dislike chicken wings hehe I serve soooo many of them I couldn't imagine eating one now :) Soooo other than that life has been pretty normal just me hubby and the dogger going thru the day to day :) I hope all my friends out there in blogger land enjoy the update and aren't bored!
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Meeting Blake Lewis Current mood: cheerful Category: Music
WEll finally we have another Blog event ROFL! we all know I don't post much but here it is.....Also know there is a poem in the works
May God Bless all of you with Laughter Love Friends and Family!
I met Blake on Saturday and it completely made my life complete! He is so kind sweet soft spoken and an overall wonderful person. He signed my shirt and took a picture with me!! I also met Phil Stacey and Melinda Doolittle while in Allentown. All my thanks go out the them for their time. We were hoping to see Chris Rich too, but things were crazy at the fair for them....security was a bit nutzo and their time schedule was rushed! I can honestly say I have never met someone with such a big heart and heartfelt appriciation for fans like Blake has towards his Blaker Girls!
I pray that Blake and the gang acheive all their goals and I can't wait for the Album :) I reallly hope it comes out Nov 20th ( the original release date) the day before my birthday YAY! IF not I will get it whenever it does come out! I will own more than one copy for sure!
Blake thanks for the love!! And may you be Blessed in all your adventures! I am a Blaker Girl for Life baby....because Blaker Girls are da Bomb....and that's because Blake is da Bomb! Keep it real Blake :)
Ok so here is my review of the show at the Allentown fair!! BLAKE ROCKS hahaha I met him got an autograph and a picture with him! I couldn't speak to him so yea no words LOL It was sheerly by luck that I got to meet him security there were bitches!! HE only got to sign about 10 things and took about 6 pictures and I somehow was lucky enough to get both as I was pushed through the gate so I was standing next to him hahaha I was so nervous but Blake was very calm and soooo nice! He really is an amazing human...ohh and those tattoos are even better in person!!!Ok so now on to the show! It was amazing! I have never gone to any other AI concert before, but I can bet millions this was the best one EVER! The girls were amazing Melinda blew me away with her voice it gave me chills it was so amazing! LaKisha was way better than I expected Jordin did not impress me at all she was the worst part of the concert! Gina even tho she was sick performed amazingly and has a beautiful voice. Haley is very talented and can belt out some country for sure! Now to the boys! Chris S looks great and sounds even better! I think he has lost some weight on tour! He can definately rock the house! Chris R was pretty good! I think he tried to be bit too much like Blake myself but he does have a great voice and some hot moves Phil was really amazing I couldn't believe how well he sang TV certainly did him no justice at all! I loved his performance in uniform of America the Beautiful. Sanjaya was amazing I have to say it even tho I don't want to ROFL! And soooo this leave us one person not reviewed..BLAKE!!!Blake gets his own paragraph! He was beyond AWESOME!! The place went nuts everytime he was on stage! He commanded the stage and put everyone of us up there with him with is moves and songs! He was the most amazing performer I have ever seen! TV did his voice absoultely NO justice either he is 100 times better in person!! I can't wait for the solo tour! YGLABN was to die for it gave me chills from begining to end! I just couldn't scream loud enough when he was on stage! My favorite part of the show was the beatboxing duo between him and Chris R it was amazing and brought tears to my eyes! I can't believe what great friends they are and how awesome they perform together! There is no artist out there that can compare to Blake!!! Ever performance was full energy and fun! He was the ONLY one to acknowledge the back row fans and the only one to step down and give the people up front high five! I am impressed with him even more than before!!! Even tho Blake was rushed by the insanely rude and ignorant security from the fair he made sure to get as many pix and autographs as possible and I am Blaessed and thank God that I got both!! Stacy
Meeting Blake Lewis Current mood: cheerful Category: Music
WEll finally we have another Blog event ROFL! we all know I don't post much but here it is.....Also know there is a poem in the works
May God Bless all of you with Laughter Love Friends and Family!
I met Blake on Saturday and it completely made my life complete! He is so kind sweet soft spoken and an overall wonderful person. He signed my shirt and took a picture with me!! I also met Phil Stacey and Melinda Doolittle while in Allentown. All my thanks go out the them for their time. We were hoping to see Chris Rich too, but things were crazy at the fair for them....security was a bit nutzo and their time schedule was rushed! I can honestly say I have never met someone with such a big heart and heartfelt appriciation for fans like Blake has towards his Blaker Girls!
I pray that Blake and the gang acheive all their goals and I can't wait for the Album :) I reallly hope it comes out Nov 20th ( the original release date) the day before my birthday YAY! IF not I will get it whenever it does come out! I will own more than one copy for sure!
Blake thanks for the love!! And may you be Blessed in all your adventures! I am a Blaker Girl for Life baby....because Blaker Girls are da Bomb....and that's because Blake is da Bomb! Keep it real Blake :)
Ok so here is my review of the show at the Allentown fair!! BLAKE ROCKS hahaha I met him got an autograph and a picture with him! I couldn't speak to him so yea no words LOL It was sheerly by luck that I got to meet him security there were bitches!! HE only got to sign about 10 things and took about 6 pictures and I somehow was lucky enough to get both as I was pushed through the gate so I was standing next to him hahaha I was so nervous but Blake was very calm and soooo nice! He really is an amazing human...ohh and those tattoos are even better in person!!!Ok so now on to the show! It was amazing! I have never gone to any other AI concert before, but I can bet millions this was the best one EVER! The girls were amazing Melinda blew me away with her voice it gave me chills it was so amazing! LaKisha was way better than I expected Jordin did not impress me at all she was the worst part of the concert! Gina even tho she was sick performed amazingly and has a beautiful voice. Haley is very talented and can belt out some country for sure! Now to the boys! Chris S looks great and sounds even better! I think he has lost some weight on tour! He can definately rock the house! Chris R was pretty good! I think he tried to be bit too much like Blake myself but he does have a great voice and some hot moves Phil was really amazing I couldn't believe how well he sang TV certainly did him no justice at all! I loved his performance in uniform of America the Beautiful. Sanjaya was amazing I have to say it even tho I don't want to ROFL! And soooo this leave us one person not reviewed..BLAKE!!!Blake gets his own paragraph! He was beyond AWESOME!! The place went nuts everytime he was on stage! He commanded the stage and put everyone of us up there with him with is moves and songs! He was the most amazing performer I have ever seen! TV did his voice absoultely NO justice either he is 100 times better in person!! I can't wait for the solo tour! YGLABN was to die for it gave me chills from begining to end! I just couldn't scream loud enough when he was on stage! My favorite part of the show was the beatboxing duo between him and Chris R it was amazing and brought tears to my eyes! I can't believe what great friends they are and how awesome they perform together! There is no artist out there that can compare to Blake!!! Ever performance was full energy and fun! He was the ONLY one to acknowledge the back row fans and the only one to step down and give the people up front high five! I am impressed with him even more than before!!! Even tho Blake was rushed by the insanely rude and ignorant security from the fair he made sure to get as many pix and autographs as possible and I am Blaessed and thank God that I got both!! Stacy
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Just things Current mood: contemplative Category: Life
As I sit here and work I often have time to think. I wonder how safe my job is and then wonder do I really care...I just want a new job where I can be happy worry free and have some money to pay off bills...sometimes that means taking a pay cut at first and perhaps that is what I really need...Then I think about places I want to visit..with my email lists I have friends everywhere! I want to visit Australia Utah Oregon Ohio Georgia of course back to Florida adn I am sure there are more places....I want to be happy and I am happier than I have been in a long long time, but I want that peaceful feeling that everything is going to be ok...this is starting to sound like a prayer and maybe that is what it is just one that everyone can see...I have thought about God a lot lately too and I believe that if God brings me to it he will bring me through it....Oh well just a bit of my thoughts and prayers for the day! I keep all my friends throughout the world in my prayers that htey are safe and happy! I must get my credit cards paid off then I think I will be more relaxed and have a bit more money than I do now...I will stop in again sometime to leave bits and bobs of life here for you to enjoy!
Just things Current mood: contemplative Category: Life
As I sit here and work I often have time to think. I wonder how safe my job is and then wonder do I really care...I just want a new job where I can be happy worry free and have some money to pay off bills...sometimes that means taking a pay cut at first and perhaps that is what I really need...Then I think about places I want to visit..with my email lists I have friends everywhere! I want to visit Australia Utah Oregon Ohio Georgia of course back to Florida adn I am sure there are more places....I want to be happy and I am happier than I have been in a long long time, but I want that peaceful feeling that everything is going to be ok...this is starting to sound like a prayer and maybe that is what it is just one that everyone can see...I have thought about God a lot lately too and I believe that if God brings me to it he will bring me through it....Oh well just a bit of my thoughts and prayers for the day! I keep all my friends throughout the world in my prayers that htey are safe and happy! I must get my credit cards paid off then I think I will be more relaxed and have a bit more money than I do now...I will stop in again sometime to leave bits and bobs of life here for you to enjoy!
Well all FINALLY I am back to work!!! All of you know where I have been....talk about a shitty month September really hurt this yr! I know you guys will remember my Harrison with me for sure...I miss him soooo much! I am taking one day at a time and getting through life! I want to make sure you guys know I love you for all the love and support :) I couldn't be doing ok without you guys! It is just so wonderful to be back into a normal routine and managing life! Obviously the trip to Fla in August didn't happen and prolly will be a while before I can get there :( that is ever so sad:( I miss my friends down there soooooo much, BUT I can still give them a call and say I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! The drinks cabana boys and beachy warm weather shall just have to wait until I am back on my feet!
Today is a good day...thursday the last day of my work week WOOT!! This weekend has no plans so perhaps I can catch some shut eye:) Wednesday is my 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! Where does the time go?? Can any of you believe I have been married that long YIKES!!! Things are well tho! I hope that next weekend we will do dinner or something for our anniversary :) Next month is BIRTHDAY month i will be 30 SWEET! Nah I ain't havin no crisis over that....just another celebration of my existance LOL! Then comes CHRISTMAS....and if any of you KNOW me you KNOW I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! Sooo that is it for today just some reflection on what's coming and sharing a sneak peak into my life with you!!!
Kimmie I know I missed your b-day celebration this yr as we both turn 30, but do know I was thinkin of you babe!! HAPPY 30th I am not far behind LOL!!! Love you!
I hope everyone has an awesome weekend and I hope to get to post a bit more soon :)
Today is a good day...thursday the last day of my work week WOOT!! This weekend has no plans so perhaps I can catch some shut eye:) Wednesday is my 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! Where does the time go?? Can any of you believe I have been married that long YIKES!!! Things are well tho! I hope that next weekend we will do dinner or something for our anniversary :) Next month is BIRTHDAY month i will be 30 SWEET! Nah I ain't havin no crisis over that....just another celebration of my existance LOL! Then comes CHRISTMAS....and if any of you KNOW me you KNOW I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! Sooo that is it for today just some reflection on what's coming and sharing a sneak peak into my life with you!!!
Kimmie I know I missed your b-day celebration this yr as we both turn 30, but do know I was thinkin of you babe!! HAPPY 30th I am not far behind LOL!!! Love you!
I hope everyone has an awesome weekend and I hope to get to post a bit more soon :)
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