Wow I have been gone awhile...not really gone just busy. I am officially a year older than I was the last time I blogged hehe! I had the most amazing birthday EVER!
The Thanksgiving season was amazing and I am sooo looking forward to the Christmas season and the joys it will bring! I can't wait to experience a happy holiday season for the first time in 8 LONG years!

Things are going great in PA. I am getting bigger by the day I swear, but have nicely only gained 19 lbs 6 months into my pregnancy :) I for the first time today I actually FEEL pregnant...it's so exciting! I have been waiting for this day :) My baby girl is VERY active she is constantly moving around which is soooo amazing! I enjoy every poke since the last pregnancy was so bad and my baby couldn't move. I love to sit and just watch my belly move around. I feel very good considering how large I am getting. I have some minor aches and pains, but nothin to complain about! It is so much fun sharing this pregnancy with daddy...he talks to Lorraine and rubs my tummy all the time it's so endearing knowing how much he loves her already! I will say it's scary thinking I am going to be responsible for this little humans life, but I know we will do fine. Phil is my balance in life...he's so wonderful and patient. He completes me in ways I have never known possible before now. I couldn't ask for a better man in my life :) I smile everyday just knowing I will see him!!

Saturday is shopping day I can't wait! I have asked Phil to join me so we can first off spend sometime alone just us together and secondly to share my Christmas excitement with him! We both work an insane amount and only see each other after he gets out of work...which means we're both really beat! We chat a bit and then it's off to bed 430 AM comes REALLY early! Yes that is when I get up everyday for work uggggh! The 13th is Christmas tree day I CAN'T WAIT to get our first Christmas tree together and decorate it :) Altho we shall see what the cats think LOL! I am sure they will enjoy climbin it :)

I don't know if it shows in my writing how happy I am! I can't put into words the changes that have taken place in my life at this point, but I can say I have never quite been this happy. I am at peace with who I am who I have become and where my life is going. for the first time ever I think I know why people fall in love! There is no more yelling or hitting just discussions and caring! I didn't know it was possible for anyone to LOVE me just because I am me! It has taken me or shall I say is still taking me a LONG time to adjust to the fact that someone wants to do things with me and love me just because I am the person I am...I don't have EARN respect or give up on things I want just to please someone else...I can share my life with Phil and him with me just because we enjoy it...without anyone getting upset or angry...it's such a new experience for me...I would be lying if I said I don't often catch myself waiting for the yelling or hitting because I disagree or don't like something....and it just never happens! I am still learning to be open and not agree with things just because it will make Phil happy...I have spent so many years training myself to just shut up or agree that being able to voice my opinion comes exteremely hard for me. Anyway enough babbling from me....I hope this find everyone doing well! I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and an amazing New Year!

God Bless you! I miss you all and Love you!

Stacy