Tuesday, March 10, 2009 

Final day of baby inside... Current mood:  anxious  Category: Life Well all here i am posting again after a long absence. I hope that everyone is doing well out there. I know I've been missing lately, but here is the update. We will be parents tomorrow and the tiny human will finally make it's way into the world. It is so exciting to know I will finally be able to hold my baby, but so scary to know I am responsible for it! I look forward to the challenges and happiness that lil Phil will bring into my life. I am honestly shocked by how fast 9 months has gone by. But have to say I am very excited to have my baby belly be gone and get into some normal clothes that fit me...these maternity clothes just aren't all they are cracked up to be :) they honestly just don't fit me even 9 months pregnant they fall off!  I go to the hospital at 930 am tomorrow to be induced and will most likely have tiny human before tomorrow ends. I said it would be March 9th, but nope I was wrong it will be March 11th or 12th when the tiny human breaks into the world. I pray all goes well and hope to be a good mom. Now on to my predictions...I want to go on record saying that I believe tiny human will be 21.5 to 22 inches long and weigh in at 8 lbs 2 oz to 8 lbs 8 oz. We'll have to wait and see how close I am, but at least it's been documented LOL!  I will close by saying I will keep everyone posted once tiny human has arrived as soon as I can. I am sure the first few days will be exhausting, but I will do what I can :) Please keep us all in your prayers that all goes well for everyone. Til next time when I will be a mom.... Love and Hugs Stacy

My take on Life... Current mood:  animated  Category: Life Hello everyone in blog world. Well since the last time I was here we have found out that perhaps our little human isn't a girl at all, but maybe a boy...Yep after 3 ultra sounds of telling us it was a girl all of a sudden on Dec 23rd we were told it possibly a boy. We are still thrilled as long as baby is doing well and is healthy we are fine with either one! Phil is still amazing with everything talks to baby every night :) I just don't know how to put him into words...definately a different experience for me for sure.  I am excited to report I can blog from home now..we got DSL so perhaps I can update more frequently. I had an ultrasound last week and the baby weighs in at 4 lbs 5 oz is very healthy and strong :) We are most likely planning to induce my labor between 38-39 weeks because baby is growing big and I have so far to drive.  I do apologize to everyone for being so absent the last 5 months or so...it seems I never have time for anything. I swear we go from sun up to sun down everyday of the week...it's so exhausting. Not to mention the bazillion dr appts I have every week...and now I am on weekly visits 2 times weekly non stress tests and once weekly AFI's whatever that is...I think fluid measurement but I am not sure. The pregnancy is going really well I LOVE being pregnant...it's so amazing growing a tiny human. I still marvel at the idea that I am bringing home a baby this time...how scary yey exciting. I am thankful everyday I have Phil to help me and support me. I just know he will be a great partner with the baby. I am so thrilled that those of you who don't know him that are attending the shower will actually get to meet him finally...I want you to all tell me what you think..HONESTLY because I think he is amazing! I want to share him with all of you! He is looking forward to meeting everyone since well he hears about most of you all the time :)  Everyone here is doing well and everyone is happy. I hope this latest post finds everyone doing well. I miss everyone of you and love you dearly! Hugs Stacy 5:24 PM  0 Comments (Add Comment) | 0 Kudos  Edit  Remove

Wow I have been gone awhile...not really gone just busy. I am officially a year older than I was the last time I blogged hehe! I had the most amazing birthday EVER!
The Thanksgiving season was amazing and I am sooo looking forward to the Christmas season and the joys it will bring! I can't wait to experience a happy holiday season for the first time in 8 LONG years!

Things are going great in PA. I am getting bigger by the day I swear, but have nicely only gained 19 lbs 6 months into my pregnancy :) I for the first time today I actually FEEL pregnant...it's so exciting! I have been waiting for this day :) My baby girl is VERY active she is constantly moving around which is soooo amazing! I enjoy every poke since the last pregnancy was so bad and my baby couldn't move. I love to sit and just watch my belly move around. I feel very good considering how large I am getting. I have some minor aches and pains, but nothin to complain about! It is so much fun sharing this pregnancy with daddy...he talks to Lorraine and rubs my tummy all the time it's so endearing knowing how much he loves her already! I will say it's scary thinking I am going to be responsible for this little humans life, but I know we will do fine. Phil is my balance in life...he's so wonderful and patient. He completes me in ways I have never known possible before now. I couldn't ask for a better man in my life :) I smile everyday just knowing I will see him!!

Saturday is shopping day I can't wait! I have asked Phil to join me so we can first off spend sometime alone just us together and secondly to share my Christmas excitement with him! We both work an insane amount and only see each other after he gets out of work...which means we're both really beat! We chat a bit and then it's off to bed 430 AM comes REALLY early! Yes that is when I get up everyday for work uggggh! The 13th is Christmas tree day I CAN'T WAIT to get our first Christmas tree together and decorate it :) Altho we shall see what the cats think LOL! I am sure they will enjoy climbin it :)

I don't know if it shows in my writing how happy I am! I can't put into words the changes that have taken place in my life at this point, but I can say I have never quite been this happy. I am at peace with who I am who I have become and where my life is going. for the first time ever I think I know why people fall in love! There is no more yelling or hitting just discussions and caring! I didn't know it was possible for anyone to LOVE me just because I am me! It has taken me or shall I say is still taking me a LONG time to adjust to the fact that someone wants to do things with me and love me just because I am the person I am...I don't have EARN respect or give up on things I want just to please someone else...I can share my life with Phil and him with me just because we enjoy it...without anyone getting upset or angry...it's such a new experience for me...I would be lying if I said I don't often catch myself waiting for the yelling or hitting because I disagree or don't like something....and it just never happens! I am still learning to be open and not agree with things just because it will make Phil happy...I have spent so many years training myself to just shut up or agree that being able to voice my opinion comes exteremely hard for me. Anyway enough babbling from me....I hope this find everyone doing well! I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and an amazing New Year!

God Bless you! I miss you all and Love you!

Stacy

Here's a gooey, romantic game of tag. Six of you will be tagged at the end (thanks, Suzanne!), so if you make it that far ... good job! Then, those six people can do the same thing on their own blog and so on and so forth. Feel free do this on your blog anyway - even if you're not tagged!
*What is your husband's name? Well boyfriend hehe is Philip C Smith III.
*How long have you guys been married? dating 8 months Dec 12th.
*How long did you date? 8 months so far.
*How old is he? 38
*Who is taller? we're both 5'8"
*Who can sing the best?Oh yea that would be Phil...altho he doesn't think so
*Who is smarter? Who can honestly answer that? I would have to say Phil the engineer hehe
*Who pays the bills? we each pay our own.
*Who does the laundry? I wash and Phil dries and folds :)
*Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? Phil does...it's next to the wall and not easy to get out pregnant....ya know lots of peeing LOL!
*Who mows the lawn? Phil
*Who cooks dinner? We share...depends on the day
*Who is the first to admit when they're wrong? ME.
*Who kissed who first? It was a mutal action.
*Who wears the pants? honestly we don't struggle...we discuss everything and decide what plan sounds best for both of us.

Thursday, October 30, 2008
We have the news! Category: Life
Well finally I am back to the good ole blog :) It's been a while, but that is just becuase there hasn't been much news other than my growing belly. We found out Friday that we will be having a baby girl in March. She will be so loved and cherished I can't even put it into words. I am very excited about our new addition. The ultrasound showed that everything is going well this time. the baby is growing on schedule and shows no signs of anything wrong. This is such welcomed news for me after the last pregnancy. There are only a few of you out there that truly know how hard losing my first baby was on me. It is certainly nothing I ever want to experience again and for sure that is the first worry I had when I found out I was pregnant again. Most of you know this baby wasn't planned, but seems to be...shall we say...meant to be. Once I get past 28 weeks I will feel 100% better I know, because it is 100% survival rate past that point. Altho of course they want to get you as close to 40 wks as they can. They have discussed inducing me because of my distance from the hospital, but I know Lorraine's daddy has some concerns about that so it is still in the discussion phase. My mind is fine with induction I trust my Dr 100% :) He was the same Dr that went through my loss the last time and I know how much he loves my new baby girl :) He told me he can't wait to hold her....how awesome a Dr is that! So in the end we shall see what happens. Everything else is going well in life. I am enjoying the changes I have made :) I hope everyone has a wonderful Halloween and pray the kids stay safe.
Love and Hugs
Stacy

Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Baby ponderings! Current mood: blissful Category: Life
Well well here I am again! I am 15 weeks along in my pregnancy as of tomorrow. We saw the Dr on Friday and it seems all is well. We heard out little one for the first time! It was ever so amazing! I can't wait to hear it again and get an ultra sound done in Oct so that we can tell what we are having! We have our names all picked out which is really awesome! I just want a healthy happy baby this time..no more experiences like Harrison. I of course am worried all the time that something is wrong even tho there are no signs to back up my worry. I REALLY want to feel pregnant so that I can enjoy my little one. We have felt some motion in my tummy which was beyond words....but it doesn't last long and doesn't repeat often :( I am so scared about being a mommy, but everyone I know says I will do great. Phil is excited which helps me to enjoy more of this and not worry as much! Have I told you all how wonderful Phil is LOL he really is my balance. I know many of you don't know him, but trust me on this one...he's completely wonderful and he LOVES me....simply amazing! Our families are also very excited :) So this little bundle will definately come into welcome arms. I know I will feel better about everything once I pass the stage where I lost Harrison which was 22 weeks...almost there! By time I go to see Dr Wetzel again it will be about 20 weeks :) Now on to the hospital drama...Tyler in Tunkahannock where I was scheduled to deliver is no longer having a maternity ward :( So now I must travel 2 hrs + to Wilkes Barre Pa to deliver our babe. I was told by my Dr's associate tho that Dr Wetzel may actual schedule my delivery and induce my labor. Just because the drive is so far and because of the issues I had before. If this prevents me having the baby in the car on the ride down than I say wonderful! It is a HUGE worry to wonder if you will make it to the hospital ect...so that would be one less thing to think about! I guess that is about all my news here until I see the Dr again! I just had to share the wonderful news that we heard our little bundle and all is going well this time! I pray everything turns out 100% different this time!
Prayers that everyone is having a Blessed day and being guided by God's Love!

Hugs
Stacy

Ok so it has been quite awhile since I was here last! And let me tell you what...sooo much has happened it is amazing! I never knew one life could withstand so much drama! I am completely in love with the new boyfriend...Phil and now live with him....this was absolutely the hardest decision I have ever made in my life and I am still a bit overwhelmed by it to be honest! We will make it work...Phil is my calm balance :) He has more faith in me that I ever will and how wonderful that he TELLS me :) How even more wonderful he tells me I am beautiful and MEANS it...to the point I almost believe it too! So now I know you are all going OMG she moved in after only 4 months what could make her do that?!?! Well that is where even more chaos strikes! It seems that on July 12th after some signs of sickness and tiredness we decided to take a pregnancy test...and yes you guessed it...positive! So shocked, but accepting! We are both excited to know we will have a little one in March! So this is what prompted our living together...now the downfall to this in my life is that Prancer couldn't move with me :(

I am completely shattered that I had to make a choice that left him out...I can't help but feel as tho he is being punished for my decisions :( I still see him everyday and he even came over yesterday to visit at Phil's, but it isn't the same for him or for me! However Phil has very small yard and a main road right outside the door which neither is a good Prancer thing! So I had to make the haredest decision of my life to leave him with mom and dad where he can still run and play at the only home he's ever known...but man is my heart broken....that dog is my everything...the one thing in my life that has never let me down and now I feel as tho I have let him down :( I keep questioning myself is what's best for him ( staying at home) really what's best without me? He is going to adjust without me? Will be ever seem happy again? ( he is really mopey now) I just don't know I have to wait and see....

so now on to happier things...Phil is the greatest guy in the world I wouldn't change a single thing about him. He makes me laugh, smile, and just feel good about myself...he love politics as much as I do ( didn't think i would ever find that hehehe) He isn't afraid of my tears...he let's me cry and just holds me close, he likes to hold me ( I am soo thankful for this) He teaches me things if I want to learn it he shows me...doesn't matter that I am a girl :) ( how cool is that) He can take my mood swings with a grain of salt and still love me...knowing I don't really want to be mean and will cry afterwards for saying hurtful things... He is involved and interested in my life as well as I am his...He has so much faith in me and tells me so...he tells me I am beautiful and makes me believe it...he is the calm to my chaos the balance my life has needed...he can tolerate the 12 yr old that lives within my soul and I think kind of appriciates it :) I could go on for days on the reasons why I love him, but I haven't time to list everything...so you will just have to take my word on this.....he's incredible and makes me feel like the most important/beautiful person on the Earth! Phil thank you for making my life complete and being the support I have always needed...I hope that I can do the same for you!

So as you may be able to tell that amongst all the chaos in my life there is stability and happiness too :) I will try to be better about posting :)

Hugs
Stacy

Thursday, June 26, 2008
What a week!! Current mood: loved Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
Ok all here I am again! I have some news to report, but not much so this should be short and sweet!
As you know I work at a bar as a waitress 3 nights a week...Well Saturday night my nightmare came true a 3rd time LOL! I fell ( luckily I had no food) and this time I fell HARD! I mean the floor shook under I swear. I was moving so fast I actually continued to slide after I fell and ended up under the pool table! Now there were about 20 ppl in the dining room OMG talk about embarassing :) Oh well so the result of my fall....a hairline fracture on my ankle and torn ligaments from my calf to my ankle on my left foot!! Jesus I do know how to make it count don't I :) I will be fine I promise! I am on crutches supposedly for 3 weeks, but the boss says I have to go back to work july 3rd...so you know I will. Plus honestly I don't work a second job because I love working that much we all know I need the $$ so that enters into my listening to him too! so that is the news here I am sure you will all find it amusing and concerning at the same time!
Now for my state of mind! I am doing really well. I am so happy with things right now. I honestly can't say anything negative about life these days. I am in an amazing relationship YAY! I take everyday as it comes and move on from there! I am not saying I don't get aggrivated or upset about things, but I do my best to take them on one at a time and move forward. I must say that Phil helps me with this a lot! He has an incredible knack for calming me down and getting my mind off things that are irritating me! I am thankful that he can understand me and not become frustrated also. I know now that life can be so much fun...I had lost sight of that a long time ago...sadly it took me until now to find it! I don't have very many days when I don't have fun, feel great, or just enjoy being alive! It is wonderful to wake up everyday and know that someone loves me...and look forward to every chance we get to spend together!
Enough rambling from me...altho most of you are used to that :) May your lives be as happy as mine! I think of you all often and even tho you don't hear from me frequently doesn't mean you aren't in my thoughts and in my heart!!
Love and Hugs
Stacy